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I had seen a page on my pager that that a collection was being taken for a friend of mine, but I didn’t know what it was for. I found out today what happened. His dad died suddenly of a heart attack. If that’s not bad enough his mom had one at the funeral and died. Being a paramedic he obviously started working her, but she was gone. I can’t even imagine what he’s going through right now. I feel so guilty for having had a good day with a few laughs. He’s been on my mind since this morning. I wanted to call him or send him a text, but I was afraid I’d do more harm than good. I’m planning on putting a card in his work mailbox and sending something individually to him, but nothing I do or say won’t make him feel better. I just want him to know how much I care. I used to have a mad crush on him. I’ve obviously moved on, but I don’t care for him any less. I don’t know if that makes sense. When my friends hurt, I hurt and right now I’m having chest pain and I can’t stop crying. I want to be there for him so bad, but…. He can be an asshole sometimes but there is NO way I would ever wish this upon someone. I know death is part of the job, but it’s not suppose to be your parents. Especially when you’re so young. My heart is breaking for him. I wish so desperately that I could make everything ok. I wish desperately that I could take away his pain!!