March 2012
32 posts
Miss Tiff, I apologize about having to get off phone so quickly. I need to learn not to call you from work, especially when my work partner is around. I do appreciate the support though.
Really?
Well, another “Monday” is here. This is my 6 day rotation on the ambulance. Not looking forward to it, but trying my best to stay positive. I should be used to the silence by now, but I’m not. Like I said before, I’m tired of feeling like I have to be considerate of everyone else when they don’t do the same or being made to feel inferior when I know I’m not....
“No matter how your heart is grieving, if you keep on believing the dream that you wish will come true”
Cinderella
I miss him so much. I miss hanging out and talking, but I think the thing I miss most is sleeping next to him. Snuggling close to him if I had a bad dream or just because. I miss those times. I felt happy when I was with him, really special….
I hate feeling so sad. I just want to be happy. I want to be able to express how I’m feeling, but am unable to. Why? I don’t know.
Shelley, I’ve been thinking about that one that you posted of Dori, that exact part, for some time now. That’s so cool.
For my Grandpa:
“Death is nothing at all- I have only slipped away into the next room. I am I, and you are you. Whatever we were to each other, that we still are. Call me by my old familiar name, speak to me in the easy way which you always used. Wear no force air of solemnity or sorrow. Laugh as we always laughed at the little jokes we enjoyed together. Play, smile, think of me, pray for...
I just want to scream!
I’ve been thinking about him all morning. I don’t know whether I’m mad or sad. I seem to have both emotions. It’s really confusing me. I feel like I’ve lost him. That, for sure, makes me want to cry. I’m tired of always wondering what he’s thinking, how he’s feeling. Again, why can’t he see what everyone else does? Is it really that hard? I...
I really think he’s intentionally trying to piss me off. I think he hears the frusteration in my voice and is getting a kick out of it. Asshole. Why can’t I snap out of this mood I’m in? Why can’t he see what everyone else does?
Since I walked into this little room this morning, I’ve had people coming from every angle wanting something, needing something. I can’t take it. Not today. I feel suffocated and my head is spinning. We’ve been pretty steady so I can’t really step out to take a moment for myself. I’m trying to snap out of this feeling and I’m having so much trouble. I just want...
February 2012
122 posts
I love Fried Green Tomatoes! It’s such a wonderful story.
I’m at work and feeling “funny.” I can’t really put my finger on it. One minute I feel very sleepy and the next I feel hyper/uneasy. I don’t know. Probably just tired.
I had it all figured out this morning. I was going to leave him alone, not care anymore and move on. Again, that was this morning. Right now I’m sitting here in dispatch wondering why those thoughts keep popping in my head. I know I could be strong enough to do it, but I still don’t feel like I am. I still don’t want to let him go after all this time….
10th-muse, you are going to loooove me. I set up a Facebook account, with the help of a friend, and I can’t get into it. I saw a video of you singing though. It was really good and again I saw that smile. Is there anyway you could send me an email address until I can figure this darn thing out? Again, loved hearing your song :) I’ll try again. Facebook just doesn’t seem to like...
Waste not, want not
Hey 10th-muse, can you message me & let me know how to reach you?
